...心灰意冷...

… Can you tell me how to b happy when all of da ppl whom I gave my trust knocked me down?

… How can I still smile each day knowing that here I am, found myself mourning again and feeling so restless, knowing that I just risked my heart believing that he would give me happiness?

… Would u condemn me if I would tell u that part of me wants to let go and move on. And d other part wants to stay? I know what’s wrong and right, I know what’s good and bad. But could u tell me where exactly I belong?

… Do u hate me coz I learned how to love da person whom I thought would make me feel better?

… Is it my fault not knowing that my happiness gives sadness to those ppl who’s been there all along? And would it be better for me to throw away that happiness for them, thinking that it would be the last hope that I got? As if im throwing the best part of my life?

… Could it be the right move for all of the people involve? Do u think its fair for all? Including me? Or am I too egotistic that all im talking about is how I feel?

… Am i? Still too selfish that all this time I wanted to get out of this emotional sickness that I have since I don’t know when? And he’s d only person who helped me to feel better each day?

… Did u ever think that when he hurt me, he took da last hope that I have in me? Did u consider that I was also hurt by the fact of life? Or u just see me as a person who doesn’t even care? That’s so not fair..

… Too much questions in my head. We r all victims here; I still need to mourn upon the death of something in me, a part of me who believes in him, piece of me who died when he hurt me.

… So please have a heart for me, this is the only thing that I could do. Let me cry, let me weep. For da last time let me feel the love that I thought was real, let me grieve. Never to criticize me, as you just don’t know me, and u just don’t know that what I feel for him is so real.

… It’s a pain for me, it would make me so glad if we never had...

Comments

[Isaac]

erm... try to rest for 1 day... peace up ur mind :")

no matter what problems... there are such many ways to settle it down... pls use other angle to see it... u will get other solution and ideas :")

Ganbateh dude~

[Bonus]

Don't be too frustrated...
find a time we come out yum char again ok?

[chris]

Terra Incognizant
by Prometheus
You would think by now, I would know my way around,
I shouldn't miss you so badly, I should be on familiar ground.
How many more lonely years, must meander by,
until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry.
What manner of iron will, must some people possess,
to be always looking forward, to never accept regress.
Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand,
they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land.
Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine,
I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time.
But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside,
and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide.
So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past,
it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last.
No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you,
for the part of me that's still alive, believes you love me too.
Maybe there will come a day, when that part will finally die,
and feeling strong with a heart reborn, a new love I will finally try.
And what a splendid day that will be, when I awaken to discover,
I'm happily learning a great new land, with a great new friend and lover.

[gold dragon]

心灰意冷....人总是希望.....希望自己想要的东西会成真.!!!可是在现实里希望的事情是永远都无法100%如你所愿!!还是去面对事实吧..面对它就会找到你想要的答案...!!

不如换个角度去看事情...!!人是世界的过客....总会有离开的一天.....!!现在他选择了用这样的方式离开...他也只不过是你世界里一个过客!!还是期待下一个过客的来临吧...会有异想不到的过程在等着你!!

[takuro3]

做人真的很难...

[raymond]

when love fall apart it sure hurt. ever thot why it hurt?
it is because you love him more than he love you.( you may have done a lot of sacrifice,contributed time and money on him)

it is time to move on.
JESUS so love you that this little love window of yours is shut,HE will open door for you. if the door is shut,HE will open the gate for you.
Hallelujah. Praise the LORD.

the above is saying JESUS is creating more chances for you to meet your MR RIGHT.

[Henry]

Hi Evonne, Ive read Ur stories..wanna share more with me?who knows it'll make U feel better.. :)
God has His own way, and we'll never know how..

[Benny]

Hi..Evonne.This is my first time read your blog.

Dun feel sad or give up for every problem that u facing.When u facing the problem,take it,face it,solve it and forget it.haha...

If regarding love,I believe you can find ur Mr. Right very soon.

I believe all of ur fren be ur good listener.If u cant find it then dun worry.I can borrow u my ear..haha...

[神改]

so sad...look likes me....why we o-ways get hurt by d1??